Critiquing Myself

April 17, 2013

I am my biggest critic. Do my legs look thin enough in these pants? What about my arms, how do they look in this shirt? My hair isn't looking right, now what do I do with it? The list of daily questions I ask myself goes on. It all starts when I get dressed in the morning and look at myself in the mirror, feel the looseness or tightness of my clothing, speculate if my outfit looks good enough, zone in on my imperfections, and so on. I begin my mornings by comparing myself to someone that I simply am not. And these insecurities tend to creep in and out of my mind all day long. It's a nasty cycle to allow yourself to delve into. And yet,  I know I'm not the only female out there that feels this way and puts myself through so much scrutiny...but sometimes it sure feels that way. I watch women around me and their seeming confidence as they go about their business. I envy them, for what I am assuming they have within themselves that I don't. Turns out more than not, those same women I'm observing have the exact same confidence and self-esteem issues that I possess. When a woman looks at another woman she is so much more positive about the appearance of that female versus the way in which she sees herself. And that's exactly what a video I recently stumbled upon demonstrates. It's a must see and so true to its core. If only I could see myself the way others see me. I need to start practicing more positive thoughts and begin to see myself in a brighter light. Are you thinking the same thing?

"I would rather be what God chose to make me than the most glorious creature that I could think of; for to have been thought about, born in God’s thought, and then made by God is the dearest, grandest, and most precious thing in all thinking." — C.S. Lewis