My 1st Mother's Day

May 9, 2016

Motherhood is everything and nothing like I expected it to be. And I have a feeling it will be like that for the rest of my life, with each new stage, each new season, and each child. Motherhood is my most challenging and most rewarding responsibility. I find myself confident in my parenting and also doubtful in what I'm doing. It's a fine balance, but you learn to trust yourself and your instincts. After all, you were made to be your child's mother; you are the best mom for them.

For me, I became a mom the moment I found out we were expecting. And on the day Greer was born, I entered into motherhood. It's a shift you don't really notice at first, but one that settles over you as you adjust to your new role. It's effortless in one sense and takes all the work in the world in another. Your priorities shift, and for the first time you begin to understand how much love God has for us when you feel the love you have for your child. It's a love so deep that it hurts and brings you to tears. It's also a love that surpasses all else; it is selfless and unconditional; it is playful and innocent; it is gentle and it is firm; it is fierce and more than you could ever imagine until you're experiencing it first hand.

Being a mama has made me all the more thankful for my own mama. In just four and half months I have begun to grasp the sacrifices, the love, and the care my mother threw into my life and my sister's. Being a mama takes passion, courage, and a bit of silly too. I hope I can be my daughter's firm ground, her soft place to land, her confidant, cheerleader, and most of all a light shining for Jesus. I look at Greer and want to give her my all, keep her from heartache, and protect her from the ugly of the world. And while I'll never be able to fully do those things, even with all my mama power, I'll strive to make each of  her days beautiful in at least one way.

Knowing that God entrusted me to care for, raise, and love His child is one of my greatest honors and privileges. Being a mother feels like the most natural thing I have ever done, and it's what I have always felt I was meant to be. My first Mother's Day felt like magic because my biggest dream has finally come true.