What's On My Pregnant Mind

December 17, 2015

If you can imagine, life has been a bit busy for the Hills lately. And you've probably noticed as my blogging hasn't been taking top priority. Because at the end of the day I'd much rather kick my feet up and do something mindless than sit at the computer and put a post together. It's true, and I'm owning it.
Today makes 4 days until we meet our little lady, and we are trying our best to check off to-dos (of both the necessary and want kind). There's still some cleaning, present wrapping, and date-nighting to be had before Monday. Somehow, we're making it all happen. Somehow

My body has certainly seemed to reach its maximum these days. The discomfort is a constant reminder that this babe is just about fully baked and ready to arrive. In all honesty, I'm quite over being pregnant at 38 weeks and 5 days. Not only am I ready to finally meet my girl, but I'm ready to have my pre-pregnancy bod back. And that in itself won't come for months, especially since I'm having to have a c-section. But, how I dream of sleeping on my stomach once again! I know that the one thing I will miss most about pregnancy is feeling baby Hill move. There's nothing that compares to feeling her tiny body flutter about and watching it play out across my stomach. Even when those movements involve a swift knee jerk that makes me catch my breath. I'll miss those too. 

There's been a lot of processing over here lately. You know, about the whole c-section thing and what that's going to be like, how it's different from the natural birth I imagined, and the recovery side of things. There have been tears (mostly because I think I'm a hormonal mess lately), there have been unruly hot flashes that don't subside quickly, and there have been jitters about becoming a mom. 

I pray that I am the best mom for baby girl. That I raise her to know the Lord, love, and joy. That even in my short comings she will still have a constant safe hold in God's presence and control in her life. That I wake up in the middle of the night when she cries. That even on my best and worst days I'm still giving her my all. It's a lot to process isn't it?! Props to you mamas out there! And just when I feel the weight of what motherhood is going to bring, I have the sweetest husband reassuring me that I've got it, I'll figure it out and excel at it. What would I do without that man? 

Our home is full of Christmas cheer, a stocking for our gal that I'm sure we'll photograph her in, and a whole lot of love. The twinkle lights give me all the feels, especially knowing that I'll be cuddling my tiny babe by them in a week. Yep, we'll be home on Christmas Eve, making this Christmas even more magical. 

In the midst of our final countdown and the preparation for all new transitions happening, husband and I have become even more solid as a married couple. It amazes me how even in this way God is preparing us for life with baby, making us stronger as a team. And I thought I loved him most the day I said 'I do'. Nothing compares to now, but I have a feeling that will change again when I see him hold our daughter for the first time. 

So here's to a whole lot of random thoughts, thanks for sticking through the post! You can expect some dwindling in my blog posting once baby girl is here. Don't worry, I'll be back and there will be plenty of photos of our family of three popping up all over Instagram. Really who can resist baby photos?? So be sure to keep up with us there too! 

And because this season will certainly be full of cuddles, enjoy this free printable that I made! Download it from the link to print it off as a 4x6, 5x7, or 8x10 and put in your favorite frame this winter! #givemeallthecuddles #especiallythebabyones

I'll see you here tomorrow for my thoughts to round out the week! And to share something extra fun that husband and I are getting to do tonight! xo